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2010-05-03T23:16:00.000-07:00

I don't like blogging anymore.

2010-03-19T01:01:00.000-07:00

I always think of you before I fall asleep. The words you said, the way you looked. The things we laughed about, the silent moments we shared. And when I dream, I’ll dream of you cause it’s about you, it’s always about you

2010-03-17T23:15:00.000-07:00

Ladies Night

2010-03-13T23:04:00.000-08:00

@ St James Power House

2010-03-10T15:03:00.000-08:00

@ St James Power House

2010-03-02T22:59:00.000-08:00

"people don't realise this, but loneliness is underrated."

2010-02-26T23:23:00.000-08:00

@ Ratchada

2010-02-25T23:13:00.000-08:00

@ Neverland

2010-02-23T23:06:00.000-08:00

Dreams are always crushing when they don’t come true. But it’s the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, and so attainable. You’re always close enough to touch, but never close enough to hold and it’s enough to break your heart.

@ Billy's

2010-02-18T20:13:00.000-08:00

@ Billy's

2010-02-17T20:38:00.000-08:00

Cny @ My place

2010-02-13T21:56:00.000-08:00

Chu xi @ My place

2010-02-12T05:18:00.000-08:00

So called "Reunion".

2010-02-11T22:31:00.001-08:00

Okay I'm lagging of updates. SO busy week! Anyway, Monday I went home after school and slept throughout the day. Tuesday I was at Town then Norman came to pick us up to Bukit Timah, IRC and after Cuscaden for some boozes. Wednesday was Town then Zouk as usual with the usual people, except weihow and his friends came along :) I think it was a damn good night. Though I was a little drunk. Hehehe. But after that we dance all night long :) Went home at 5 slept for two hours and woke up for school. Stayed in school for like 30mins. Had a very bad hang over so I decided to go home. But mum and dad picked me up and brought me to Sentosa, Capella for lunch :) I swear its been so long since I went out with them. Haha. We went Resort World to look around and all. OMG I CAN'T WAIT FOR UNIVERSAL STUDIO TO OPEN!! I heard its opening in March. ahhhhhh! I'm really so excited. Hehehe. Cny is nearing. Sense the money now!

Vday, GoToHell

2010-02-07T08:55:00.000-08:00

2010-02-04T19:09:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Mandy ^^

2010-02-04T10:39:00.000-08:00

This:

Love is supposed to be easy. If you meet someone and the conversation flows, the chemistry is right and you share the same values, there is nothing to struggle with.

And:

Love throws up all kinds of problems, questions and the need to compromise. Oh god, I wish love was easy! Falling for someone is the only easy component.

2010-02-01T04:20:00.000-08:00

I am me, that’s all I can be. No more, no less, don’t second guess. I laugh, I love, I live, I cry and sometimes I wish that I would die. Somedays I’m funny, others I’m not. Sometimes I’m in overdrive and I can’t stop. You may not like me, thats okay. Because this is me and how I’ll stay ^^

2010-01-29T19:58:00.001-08:00

@ Starbucks

2010-01-22T02:18:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Cheng ^^

2010-01-20T20:06:00.000-08:00

@ Cine & Zouk

2010-01-16T09:21:00.000-08:00

Last day of Mural Painting & Lasalle Open House

2010-01-15T07:18:00.000-08:00

Mural painting day 2 & Lasalle Open house

After that left for Town to meet the girls and boys for dinner and Phuture at night :) " Who gonna get drunk tonight!"

Mandy, Me & Carissa :)

Linda :)

Cheeyang & Justin :)

Mural painting again tmr ):

2010-01-14T09:14:00.000-08:00

Mural Painting Day 1

2010-01-11T07:31:00.000-08:00

Today's the first day of a new term. It wasn't that bad except for waking up so early. Lecture in the morning and then 4 hours break. Caught the movie Vampire's Assistant with Chern and then is back to school for Drawing lesson while he went home. Town after to meet Mandy & Yat for dinner.

2010-01-10T07:55:00.000-08:00

Ritz Carlton for dinner :)

With Ziyang, WeiJie & Mirabelle.

Disgusting Law Ziyang!

Act cute Law Ziyang!

2010-01-09T17:19:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates. Been busy working & assignments. But now they all done am prepared for school.

2009 wasn't a good year for me at all. I lost someone whom I loved so much, D. The only one whom I'm willing to give up everything but yet nothing in return. The boy who taught me so much in life. Because of him I realize how weak I can be by doing anything for someone you love. He made me realize that we should never take things for granted. We might regret it. And I'm regretting it so much, even till now. I know I left a scare in him that will not be erased. Thanks for the good times. Forget about the bad times. Because with you around, everything was beautiful.

After the broke up with D, I started working with The Cannery. I love my job a lot. I made so much new friends and my colleagues, they are awesome people :) After a month of working there, I met N. I Never thought I would have that feeling for him. I didn't like him at all when first introduced. After much of trying to fall in love again, N is the one boy whom gives me that feel. The feeling like D once gave me too. The butterflies in the stomach every time I see him. But it seems like things couldn't work out? His friends told me a lot about him. I heard so much and it keeps me thinking while he's away. I'm afraid to repeat the history. Even now, I'll still anticipate his text. I'll hope to see him around. But I guess if fate wasn't there, then I think fate wasn't enough. Oh well, I don't even know if its love or just a crush. Probably a very deep crushed? I'm very happy to have met him :) I miss N badly.

And Dawn, Jing & Meryl. We seems to be drifting apart. Been busy with so much stuff. I'm sorry but I promise I'll find time for you all okay Nevertheless I still love you girls!

On a happier note, this year, I became closer with Mandy, Amanda & Linda. They are the girls whom will stay 24/7 with you whenever in need. I love you girls very much. We shall remain this way always babies.

My closest brothers, Ziyang & Weijie. I'm glad Ziyang found his love of his life. His dream girl. Am happy for you bro. As for Weijie, he's gonna ORD in two months time. He will work with me at The Cannery soon :)

Jovin, Cheng & the EPS. Another year counting down our friendship. Haha. Its been almost to 5 years. Am so glad to have you guys around. You all definitely changed my life. Love you all!

Whatever, Happy New Year to all! Let's all wish 2010 a good year ahead :)

2010-01-09T07:30:00.000-08:00

@Linda's place

2010-01-06T10:19:00.000-08:00

@Lido, rushing with assignments

2010-01-02T03:10:00.000-08:00

@Cine & Clark quay

2010-01-01T02:51:00.000-08:00

Bloody Beetroots @ Zouk

2009-12-31T01:24:00.000-08:00

New Year Eve @ Boat Quay, UP

2009-12-29T22:38:00.000-08:00

@Ratchada

2009-12-28T14:05:00.000-08:00

Only when I grew to love you did I understand the relativity of time — just then, I wished to embrace you forever, hoping that eternity would last just a few minutes more.

2009-12-27T23:37:00.000-08:00

A night spent @ Town

2009-12-27T23:17:00.000-08:00

Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can’t control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That’s what it was like for me. I didn’t plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt that you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once, and that’s why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I’ll never forget a single moment of it.

2009-12-26T00:47:00.000-08:00

When you want to spend every waking moment of every single day with him, and no matter what you’re doing, even if you feel like crap, you want to share it with him. When you think of him before you think of yourself, or anything else for that matter. When you want him to know every little thing about you, and you want to know everything about him. When you want to be able to finish his sentences and him finish yours. When you’re willing to make yourself miserable looking at cars, or some guy thing he’s interested in, just to be him with, to have that extra moment with him that you would not have had otherwise. When he is all that you think of, dream of, and you don’t care about anything else but him.. that’s love.

I want to be the smile, the first thought, the long drive, or the short walk, the last voice, the random call, the laugh, the perfect kiss, the comfort hug, your second half, the sparkle in your eye, everything you need, or simply just what you want. I want to be yours.

And it’s not only about what I feel for you. It’s about what I don’t feel for anyone else but you.

2009-12-25T14:59:00.000-08:00

Christmas Day @ M Hotel

2009-12-22T09:21:00.000-08:00

Today was Christmas shopping with Mum, Mandy & Amanda :) Bought tons & tons of gifts. Can't wait for X'mas partayyyyyy :)

You know I used to spend each and every day thinking about you and dreaming about you, and everytime you walked by I lost myself. Do you know what that feels like?

2009-12-19T12:51:00.000-08:00

@ Town & St James Power House

2009-12-17T01:24:00.000-08:00

@ Zirca & Nigel's place

2009-12-16T23:14:00.000-08:00

Redbull Event with the CSOs and friends (Who says Singapore no winter?) Hahaha. Spend half the time outside Cus it was too cold in there and I was super tired. So Nigel & I decide to L4D and after Szetoh's place for more drinks.

It was already 6 in the morning. Manfred's ideal to Sentosa. So we all went and got ourselves all burnt! Town for dinner & Szetoh's place again for drinking in the night. I was very very very tired. Have yet to have a proper sleep since last saturday. So I slept at his place the whole night. Went home in the morning and continue sleeping. Meeting babies first then Rebel in the night with Nigel & co.

2009-12-13T00:07:00.000-08:00

Its always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all. Like absolutely nothing. It hurts so much. When I feel someone is going to leave me, I have a tendency to break up first before I get to hear the whole thing. Here it is. One more, one less. Another wasted love story. I really love this one. When I think that its over, that I’ll never see him again like this. I’ll bump into him, we’ll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we’ll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. Almost. Always the same for me. Break up, break down. Drunk up, fool around. Meet one guy, then another, fuck around. Forget the one and only. Then after a few months of total emptiness, I’ll start to look for true love again, desperately looking everywhere and after two years of loneliness, meet a new love and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well. But then, there comes a moment in life when you can’t recover any more from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, you still can’t live without him. And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, you love his sneezes more than anyone else’s kisses.

Sometimes its easier for me to pretend then to face my feelings. Sometimes its easier to try and make it alone than risk getting hurt again. Sometimes its easier to be nonchalant towards certain people so I don’t let them get too close. Sometimes I’m scared, but when I push you away, it doesn’t mean I don’t care it means I care too much.

2009-12-11T23:42:00.000-08:00

Kcians @ Phuture

2009-12-09T00:22:00.000-08:00

Every girl has that one boy, that they’ll never get over. That one guy who makes you laugh all the time. The one who gives you butterflies just when someone mentions his name. That one who remembers all the stupid things you say and reminds you about it months from now. The one who has his name written all over your heart. The one whom you compare to everyone. The one you never get sick of talking or hearing about. The one you cry over and over about. The one everyone thinks you can do better than. The one you ask why her and not me. The one when you first saw him you knew you loved him. The one that in some way ends up not being yours. That one person in your life that you just can’t give up on; the one person who can screw you over and over, time after time, yet you always seem to give them another chance? And no matter how many times you say this is the last one, you know that’s a lie because there’s always just one more chance waiting for them. The one person you know you’re better off without but yet you can’t find a way to let them go because deep down inside, you wouldn’t know what to do without them. The one person you know who doesn’t deserve you, but yet you choose to over look it because you love him.

2009-12-08T22:51:00.000-08:00

2009-12-06T10:20:00.000-08:00

2009-12-05T23:06:00.000-08:00

Evon ^^

2009-12-04T22:48:00.000-08:00

@Phuture

2009-12-03T22:22:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Amanda.

Amanda & Linda

Had the best night ever! It shall also be our last time stepping into the giao tor place. Haha

2009-12-02T23:49:00.000-08:00

Zirca CSOs @Lunar & Boat Quay

2009-11-28T20:28:00.000-08:00

@ St James Power House

2009-11-22T10:43:00.000-08:00

60 days.

I know I’m bad at showing it, but I really do love you. Have you noticed how I always smile when I see you? How my friends all know your name? How I keep sending messages even when you don’t reply? How I remember those little things about you? Did you know that I kept those dumb stuff you once gave me? And the movie tickets? I may be bad at letting it show, I may be too reserved, too quiet, too used to hiding how I feel, but I want you to know.. You've always been on my mind.

2009-11-17T05:29:00.000-08:00

2009-11-14T04:48:00.000-08:00

@ St James Power House

2009-11-11T20:40:00.000-08:00

@ Butter Factory & St James Power House

2009-11-09T07:38:00.000-08:00

Stress.

2009-11-08T08:27:00.000-08:00

2009-11-06T05:58:00.000-08:00

2009-11-04T09:24:00.000-08:00

The perfect boy.

Who calls you beautiful instead of hot,

Who calls you back when you hang up on him,

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep,

Who hold your hands in front of his friends,

Who thinks you're just as pretty without make up on,

Who is constantly reminding you how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you.

And turns to his friends and say, "She's the one"!

2009-11-01T10:05:00.000-08:00

Happy Halloween & Happy Birthday Alvin.

2009-10-26T10:11:00.000-07:00

2009-10-25T10:10:00.000-07:00

@ Ehub

2009-10-24T23:58:00.001-07:00

Halloween @ Night Safari

This bloody clown scared the shit out of me. He chased me around like hell. I swear I hate him!

2009-10-22T22:22:00.000-07:00

@149

2009-10-21T01:06:00.000-07:00

2009-10-17T20:50:00.000-07:00

@ St James Power House & Dragonfly

2009-10-16T23:29:00.000-07:00

2009-10-14T23:49:00.000-07:00

@ Town & Butter Factory

Life has been good without a BF. Hehehe

2009-10-13T09:00:00.000-07:00

Mandy called me and she asked to go JB, Malaysia. Hehehe. We confirm damn steady, cus theres only the two of us. Lol. Met her at Jurong East. Took a bus in and we headed to City Square. lol. Eat, shop, eat. I think we ate quite alot. FAT BUT SHIOCK! Everything there was dirt cheap! Hehehe. Head back when the sky's dark. Went Lot One to hang out awhile and then home :) The super nice Jayden drove me home. Hehehe. Thanks buddy!

Kim Gary for dinner :)

2009-10-12T21:43:00.000-07:00

Monday Blues.

2009-10-10T11:13:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday WeiHow & WeiJie.

2009-10-09T10:25:00.000-07:00

Sorority Row @ Town

Herman, Kenneth

2009-10-07T23:09:00.000-07:00

@ St James Power House

2009-10-04T10:53:00.000-07:00

@ Town & Butter Factory

2009-10-02T14:57:00.000-07:00

@ Boat Quay, UP

2009-10-02T00:46:00.000-07:00

People say what’s the point in liking someone who doesn’t care, and they are right, there is no point. But you can’t help who you like. It’s not up to you. Your heart just kinda decides for you. And there’s no turning back once your heart make up it’s mind.

2009-09-30T14:16:00.000-07:00

@ Zouk

2009-09-29T14:09:00.000-07:00

@ Town

2009-09-28T13:36:00.000-07:00

Majong @ Jovin's

2009-09-25T22:08:00.000-07:00

@ Town & Clark Quay

2009-09-24T21:00:00.000-07:00

Certain things just aren't meant to me. No matter how hard you try to make it work, if fate isn't at your side, well then having faith is not enough. But we were different. Everything felt so right. Well believe it or not, I've always been true to you all the way up till now. Its hard to put it across and through to you, but hey, what's done is done. If we cant be lovers, we can always be friends :) This might be some sappy love dedication to most people, but to me its more than just that. I type this entry where i hold nothing back, hide nothing. People say that miracles don't come true, but I've had mine, his name was Daryl. Though things between us didn't work out, but whatever that was shared between us, i will always. And i know that we've shared rhapsody of feelings together, let them be happy or sad, not to mention angry ones, i somehow always knew that we shared something really special. Indescribable and perfect. You always seem to be able to overcome all embarrassments with that unbearably cute laughter and smile of yours. The same smile as to that i'm totally lost in. I never fail to get lost in that smile of yours. Every time i'm with you, i tend to forget the happenings around me. Even when i'm dead pissed over my assignments, you never fail to lighten the mood and make me just can't help but to smile silly back at you. Your the very light that makes my darkness disappear. Its a pity how good things must come to an end. But hey, forever is a period of time of which we define. And our forever, however much was wonderful. On a brighter side of things, though i'm not sure there's one. We cant tell the future. And if the future sees us another shot at love, i'll strip down right to my very soul, cus i never wanna lose you. With this, i bid you farewell baby. Keep those smiles coming. i'll always be around the corner, and 8 digits away.
Goodby love.

2009-09-24T09:53:00.000-07:00

2009-09-23T00:52:00.000-07:00

@ Zouk

It's amazing the things you realize when you lose someone, you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for granted the days spent doing nothing when you could have been with them. Anyone can be taken, at any time in our lives, but we always wait until they're gone to say the things we never had the courage to before.

2009-09-22T20:24:00.000-07:00

20th April 2009 was the start of our love. I still remember clearly how we first met. We were both so shy, so cute. Haha. That moment was really sweet. People always say, all good times comes to an end. Really true. Sigh

Day 1, You had your first bball match over at Kovan, We all went to support your team. You had your various falls and unglam mishaps. It was a total turn off. Haha. But you seems to overcome all embarrassments with that unbearably cute actions and smile of yours.

Day 2, I was called out to this bbq together with you and friends. I dare say it was actually quite boring because I didn't know anybody there except for the girls. I didn't know why I went either. Lol. But I didn't regret a bit at all because you sat beside me having our first breakfast at 6 in the morning at DownTownEast. And it was also the first day you text me if I'm gonna meet you guys again the next day, that was right after I left you guys :)

And it was day 3, we met up at church after 4 hours of sleep despite you tired cus of army, you still went :) It was nice having you around. We headed to town after that. Had dinner and than to Power House. Our "first date" at Power House. We drank a little before going in and you were really really red. Haha. I was already almost there and you offered to take care of me. You accompanied me all the way till party end :) You were really sweet. Party ended and I took my friend's car home, had an accident. You text me to ask if I was home, told you about it and you called me immediately. We talked on the phone right after I'm home and all the way afternoon. We were suppose to meet up for movie but sadly you weren't able to wake up. But still you called me and hour later. Hehe. And we continue talking on the phone all the way till you booked in at night.

And for the first time, Just you and me at Jurong point, you had nights out and I went over to look for you. We hang out and took the last train. You offered to send me back home. It was indeed far. From Jurong West to Tanah Merah and back to Jurong West. But you ended up staying over my place :) Accompanying me do my assignments and you train back to camp 5 in the morning. I assume its because it was the first time and that you were so nice to me? Continue talking on the phone for the whole morning :)

We indeed had a very lengthy conversation together. We did click very well, able to talk anything and everything under the sun :) We continue contacting each other 24/7. As days goes by you told me stuff about me and all. It melts me :) I told other about you. They disagree. People around us never believe that anything good would come of our relationship. But look how far we've came. Never did I brought you down at all. Never once. Because I believe I have to see it for myself. And so I decided to take the gamble. With no regrets!

I'm not afraid to admit the mistakes I've done. I've never learn to treasure anything till I met you. I didn't knew my actions would cause someone to get hurt so deeply. I'm sorry. It all started because of all that. Sigh. It was the biggest mistake I've done. Once bitten twice shy. Slowly there wasn't trust anymore. And with no trust we just can't carry on. Though we do love each other very much till today? We both will just get so worried with each other, keep thinking what we do everyday and all. Furthermore, he's in the army. And its much difficult to show each other, to gain that trust back. Very paranoid. We tried many times. Really so many chances but I guess things just can't work out? Sigh. Like I said I did the best I can but it takes two hands to clap. So now, blame myself for the selfishness that cause all this and thank you, I've learnt a lot in this relationship.

In Love, nobody is right nor wrong. Probably just the way I express my love for you wasn't the right way and was somehow lost in translation from my feelings to actions. All I can do now is stand up from the fall and look forward to other things life offer. Right here, i wish you all the best. I wish you happiness. Read that letter? There is so much on my mind now that i simply can't put them all into words. But i hope that deep down inside, you already understand this realization I've come to. Still Friends?

Thanks for the memories. They are unforgettable.

2009-09-20T11:20:00.000-07:00

^^ I HATE DOTA FOR GOD SAKE!

2009-09-20T11:13:00.000-07:00

5th Monthsary.